What is to be found in our obituaries

I've been thinking a lot lately about my life, as to what're the things that I wanna do and whatnot. Then I got to think about death, about how it will all end. Will I die a happy man? A content one? Or with a sour grimace on my face while lying in my deathbed? It posed the ultimate question: "Will I ever be happy?"

Given these, I decided to start writing my obituary. Y'know, when you write your obituary, you get to realize the things that you want to do or accomplish in your life. It's like setting goals with a touch of morbidity in it. Although I haven't been the happiest person lately, it would be very nice to know that there are things out there that can fill this void. (Oh, I wanna fill Cindy Kurleto's "void "too, if you know what I'm saying =P)

Here are the things that may seem unattainable, nevertheless they are still my dreams:

1) Inner Peace
2) An affinity with my God
3) Somebody to share my life with
4) To write a novel
5) To be someone important in the society
6) To serve the people in my own little way
7) To enjoy my life more

I want to be happy, I'm trying my best to be happy. To be content. Hard as it may seem for me, I don't want to look back and say: "Ah, those were the days."

Ooh, by the way what would you write on your headstone? Curiosity strikes me once in a while. Mebbe I'd write: "I told you I was ill" and the music while my casket is being lowered would hopefully be "Stayin' Alive."

I find myself blabbering once again. Anyway, gotta go back to school. Ciao!