Cheers!

Happy birthday to me! I'm now twenty three years old!


Now, what did I do on my birthday you might ask? Well, I spent the whole day in school, studying for this subject that demands a lot of time from me. I've never been this serious about school, mind you. And, when I got home, someone special bought me a cute little cake, gave me a portable coffee container too! =D The cake was great, FYI.

I've been so stressed out lately; I think what drives me is this seven year itch of wanting to prove something to myself. Yeah, I've been a fuck up, and I don't wanna be fuck up anymore. I've been there, done that. But it doesn't matter how hard you fall down, what matters is how fast you get up.

Babble babble.

I've been trying to be the best man that I can be for the past year; I've been trying to accept everything that life throws at me. But even the toughest men fall. And life doesn't stop there, it also kicks your balls too when you're down.

Even though everything seems to crumble down before my eyes, the things that I love, the things that I care for, the things that I treasure the most, I still try to persevere. Endure, and in enduring grow strong is what I always say.

Blah blah.

I wanna be free for a change, I wanna live my life the way with my own rules. I wanna to decide without taking into consideration the opinions of others, I want more time for myself.

Etc etc.

Come to think of it, I wanna be a kid again. A kid doesn't have any big problems, doesn't worry too much about the things to come. Neverland, now that's a nice place to live in.

Hey, have I told you guys about one of the neatest things that happened to me while I was away? I met two of my siblings! I met my kid brother Vincent and my adorable and plump kid sister Charlize! Vincent is deaf by the way, can't hear a damn thing, but he is very smart. Was awarded a lot of medals this school year. He's very sweet too. Charlize on the other hand is very adorable, I wanna hug her when I sleep. She's like a small body pillow. You gotta have some candy to get her to notice you, otherwise she'll ignore you. How I wish that my sister would get over her issues with my siblings, they're just kids, they've done nothing wrong. Charlize also looks like Kat too, my older sister.

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Anyway, going back. Yeah, things have indeed changed while I was away. I got used to studying, I've learned to be more responsible(thank you Ms. Esleta - INDIBEH, but it's not yet over!), I've been through hell and back.

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Yes, going back to change, change is indeed constant. People change for the better or for the worse. It's really up to the person to progress or regress. Yes, people do not change overnight, but they can start changing right then and there. A person must learn to realize that he/she controls his/her future; that he/she can do something to make it better. That's Internal Locus of Control for ya. =D

Babbling on...

I think I wanna spend some time with myself in the near future. Even though I've got a lot of things to submit, a lot of things to do, a lot of things to take care of, I wont forget to give myself a break. After all, I deserve it after all this shit that I've been through eh?

Solitary ramblings...

Well, I guess that's it for now. I wanna write some more, but my minds not that organized at the moment. Sorry for this ugly piece, I just wanted to speak my mind. To think aloud. To some of you the things that I've written may be too shallow, but if you're in my shoes you'd realize how complicated it is. You'd know.

Emo bitch.

Well, Mr. R., I think you're right again. Cheers!